The Next Step

As of today I am joining a study in Kabbalah at the ARI Institute (see links or here) for a number of reasons I like you to know.

The most obvious reason might be that it is connected to a deeper understanding of the Hebrew Alphabet. As you may remember, this is how I started this blog, to indicate a kind of cover-up of letters by the words in Scripture. At the bottom of this craving for understanding lies the belief that Scripture contains a (hidden) detailed manual of what it means to be human, not in a moral or religious context, but in a spiritual context. Whatever 'spiritual' means, it is the essence of a human being. One of the most shocking things for me has been, that the 'Old Testament', and in particular the first five books of Hebrew Scripture, called the Pentateuch, contain already everything you need to know. But I feel that this statement needs more explanation than I can put into words right now and I am working on that. In fact, that is the sole purpose of everything I do nowadays, to find ways to put into words what this means.

However, as important as the understanding of the Hebrew Alphabet is, I do not expect that it will be taught in this course on Kabbalah. So, a more important reason for me to join, is to understand better what I have been experiencing in the past year that I would call a progressive revelation of divinity. This process has had a profound influence on how I view the world, humanity and my place in it. I have not found on the Internet any better references than I have already listed in the links. There is a lot of related and unrelated stuff out there that is more confusing then helping and I have listed the references that have been of most help to me. I hope, in time, that interested readers might agree on their usefulness when they check them out for themselves.

Even more reasons for joining present themselves to me. I would like to be able to communicate better what I have been experiencing as part of my efforts to share information about what I suspect is most important to every human being, namely to know oneself profoundly. As I already know, my ability to share these things will improve my own well-being as a function of the improvement of the well-being of the people I influence. So there is really no way around it for me. As I improve my efforts, my efforts' results will improve and with time, it may prove the most exciting and fulfilling endeavor I could have ever dreamed of.

It has been an enormous relief for me to find that there are other people teaching in this area, even if it is only at the basic level. It paves the way for more profound interest among people of all nations. I admit that I at first was terrified by the idea that I could be the only one with an understanding of the profound implications of my discovery. The immense contradiction of feelings that comes with this realisation is indescribable. Not just the feeling of being alone, but knowing that I actually must face the possibility that loneliness is a fundamental property of who I am in a world full of people, is pure horror.

Happily for me, I am passed that stage by conquering this fear by embracing my experience in love. Now I feel that I am unstoppable, because this transformation of fear into love will continue forever. In fact, that which scared the hell out of me at first, has proven to be the door to another Life, where 'I' do not matter any more or less to myself than you.

The Hidden Dot

Here's the deal: somewhere on this blog, I hid a special dot and if you click on it while you hold your deepest wish, it will come true.

"What's this?" you may ask, "Unreal going through the top."

Well, because I write this blog, you may ask about what I feel when I write something like this. Some of you, who know me better, know that I have a way of bending reality beyond the known. So, for those people, this should not come as such a big surprise as for some of the newcomers. What I do realize, though, is that at least it gives a kind of confusion about what I am talking about. Well, it is not exactly about creating confusion, instead it is about the opposite. I ask myself this question very often: "How do I eradicate confusion once and for all?"

Confusion is like a smokescreen that hinders everybody, including me sometimes, to see the Truth. So, in order to make known the Truth, I need to eradicate confusion about what it is. More importantly for me, I need to know whether I can do that. Can I single-handedly eradicate confusion for others? That would be a great gift and I would not seize to use that gift. But then this would show up in people's lives as unexpected as the appearance of a miracle anyway. So, in a way, I am on the hunt for something that has no word yet, but it has a known effect, namely, eradicating confusion and illuminating Truth.

Truth is what you make it, really. So, if I could reduce the access to Truth to a simple mouse click, Truth would pour into people's lives automatically and they would seize to be confused about what it is. And so, I thought of this idea, to put a dot somewhere on my blog with exactly this effect, to eradicate confusion. How? By the fact that it really will work with people's deepest wishes. If they would find the dot on my blog that they could click it, they would literally receive that wish they are holding as sure as I am living. And when that happens, they for sure know that I told the Truth.

So, please, go ahead, keep your wish ready and click any dot you see OR think about how I could have hidden that special dot and look for it. If you want a hint to find it, select the next paragraph so that it will change into white on blue.

Here is the dot between brackets and quotes: ('.') Do you see how I hid this dot? It was absent as long as you did not use the hint to see this text. Now that you found the dot, it shows that you were curious enough to look for the hint. You can see that you had to use the hint to find the hidden dot. It also proves that I did hide the dot. So, please use it for the intention I put it here and click on it with your wish in mind. Contact me when your wish has come true. I am sincerely interested in your story!

If you'd like a reference, please read this small e-book for free: As a Man Thinketh by James Allen.