The total worth

This reality is a miracle. No! What do I say? A miracle? It is a continuous miracle. No! Then it would still be singular. If the miracle continues, divided by any measure of time, it is a countless number of miracles compressed in those time capsules. No! There is no division of time! No, no, no, what is a miracle anyway?

The miracle of all this, is the fact that its worth is defined by that which gives it worth. So, when somebody says that it is worth more than any earthly possession, then it is. And in that instant where it is acknowledged to have this worth, the abundance of this reality called a miracle from the beginning, is poured out in front of you to enjoy every bit of it.

So, let me ask you, is there a name that combines thousand, hundred and ten?

Yes, there is, and I heard this name yesterday for the first time. Yesterday is the name of the things that have lost their worth. So, to preserve things, we have to dig into the past and bring them back into the present and assign its proper worth to it. In a sense, the past becomes the future: when we are in the process of digging it up, we are in the process of forming the future. When we present it in the present, and assign worth to it according to our opportunity and our capability we receive its worth a thousandfold in return. So, whenever we dig something up, we'd better give a positive worth to it. If it is a negative worth we assign, we will lose a thousandfold as well and it had been better it stayed in the past.

So, here is this name, it is Millicent. This name belongs to a kind lady with whom I had the pleasure to talk for a while in the train. Let's look at this name.

Milli (not Milly) is used in millimeter and other measures. It derives from mille, meaning thousand or thousandth part.
Cent is used in centimeter and other measures. It is derived from cent, meaning hundred, or centesimus a hundredth part, such as a cent is a hundredth part of a currency unit.

Putting the two parts together Millicent is a name that assigns a worth (or value) of 1000 x 1/100, which becomes 10. This name is not meant to be a calculation - as if to assign quantity - but to express quality. What quality does it express? In this regard it is also (surprisingly?) an exact name. If we are to identify with this name, it tells us that we consist of many (mille) parts (cent) and its result is 10 (ten), expressed in 1 (one) name.

Now, to explain this 10, let me introduce the Hebrew Letter י (Yud). It is the tenth letter of the Hebrew Alphabet. It is the first letter of those that express a relationship with existence, opposed to the previous nine that express archetypes, not yet existing, as before or beyond time. Yud as 10 expresses existence of its archetype א (Aleph, 1). By expressing in existence that which is beyond time, it can only do it partially. But Yud is powerful in that its expression is unique and irreplaceable.

Yud is the birth of affirmation, and it causes the addressing of its demands. This process of affirmation of things that have never been, but have been buried in the past, is itself the expression of the letter Yud. Yud has been born from the past, therefore it is alive in the present rather than dead. Even for a single moment, it is a witness of its origin, in that moment before it is gone. And when it does witness of its origin and assigns a worth to it, it becomes the thousandfold exaltation of an expectation. Who is content with an empty hand? If it is filled with what it deserves, the owner's heart is filled a thousand times.
(Yud idiomaticly also means hand.)

I kissed Millicent's hand before I stepped out of the train. I kept the inner witness of life for myself, at least temporarily. I trust it to express the total value of its origin; it is Aleph exalted ten times or a hundred times or a thousand times!