Mind is a Myth

(See Mind is a Myth)

"When the Aleph erupts, no Beyt (house) remains and even the Reysh (head) is restructured - leaving the individual senseless and a singularity - the incorporated Aleph. It is an inverse creation: uncreated." (my formulation)

Reading about the experience of U.G. Krishnamurti (July 9, 1918 - March 22, 2007), not to be confused with Jiddu Krishnamurti (May 12, 1895 - February 17, 1986), I felt a deep empathy for this man. His inner restructuring is so radical, that it took him years to recuperate - but this word 'recuperate' must be understood here as making him without experience. His state is a possibility - as he proves - that I would call an incorporated Aleph. Words being utterly meaningless, since Aleph is infinite, there is no definite state, neither is there a description. Nevertheless, working with the paradox, allows us to assign a symbol, Aleph.

His nature is Adam and as one can read that means androgynous. Gen 1:27 is repeated in

Gen 5:2 - Male and female created he them; and blessed them, and called their name Adam, in the day when they were created.

This verse is not about two persons, this was about a single person - Adam.

To give an impression of the way an Aleph talks, consider the next statement by U.G.:

"I have no message for mankind. But of one thing I am certain, I cannot help you solve your basic dilemma or save you from self-deception, and IF I CAN'T HELP YOU, NO ONE CAN."

To be an Aleph installs the awareness of utter powerlessness resulting from having all the powers of the Universe resolved in you. There are no contradictions, therefore there are no solutions. There are no illusions, therefore, no lessons. There are no questions, therefore, no answers. This is a terrible realization. But some call it bliss. Yes, it's your pick. You may ask what these words mean. Consider it homework.

Now, if you ask an Aleph something, you get an answer that you do not consider an answer. But listen carefully! You missed the answer already. The frequency in the response is so high, so utterly destructive, that only if you join this state of mind, you will be safe. Consider yourself. Why would you ask something in the first place? Do you think anybody knows the answer to your question? What do you really mean? What is there to know that you find so important to know? What you want to know is not the answer to your question. No, you want to know your own answer, dug up from your inner knowledge, because only then could you possibly recognize the answer if it came to you. So, instead of asking it - putting it into words for others to hear - keep your question inside, keep it locked up in your head and let it come to life! Your questions are valuable, but you kill their life by putting them into words. Your words, as powerful as they are, they kill the power of Aleph residing in you.

Now, the dilemma of self-deception hides in your perception of the difference between question and answer. Your question arises from deep within you, unspeakable. This dragon is surfacing and you take resolve to fight it. You are going to slay it. You are going to kill it. You are, simply, going to put it into words. Dead! No question in your mind remains, but lying as dead meat in front of you. What have you done? You killed a question! "Who cares, it's just words?" you ask. There you go, self-deception. What do you think constitutes your question?

Never will you heal, if you do not keep your words as treasures inside. When you're finally healed, your words do not have the destructive power to kill your questions - now they will carry all the power that you represent!

OK, so you don't ask the question - you are determined to find the answer, but you won't ask it. What is going to happen next? You have convinced yourself of the importance of that question. You are going to do some research and soon you find that there is no single answer to it. You refine your question, over and over again. And over and over again, you can't find a satisfying answer, because you find that still, the question does not allow for a single answer. Don't you see? You suffer from self-deception again. You have all the answers, but you don't see them. You search for answers, you find them, but you do not see them as answers. You keep looking and suffer from self-deception.

The dilemma you're facing: What constitutes your question? The answer, the feeding ground of the dragon, is hidden, but nevertheless strengthened the dragon to appear. Those two, the feeding ground and the dragon are best left alone. Look closer, deep inside. Then your self-deception will vanish and with it the dilemma. Because the two will vanish and be destroyed by their own force. Destruction in this sense is the resurrection of the incorporated Aleph!

You did it before. Do you remember?